I use to be a fat kid (very fat) now I'm getting older and want to be in the best shape ever. There is a fear of going back to the fat kid so it makes me push harder to achieve my goals. Trained natty for a few years and around 33 I hit a wall just no drive or progress so read and learned which lead me to this path. I never half ass anything very competitive in nature and I also have a hot younger wife that keeps me pushing harder as well lol. I believe everyone had insecurities of some sort how you deal with them is your decision and this is how I dealt with mine. Like preacher said this is a lifestyle for us now and loving it you just have to be safe research and ask questions.