Quote Originally Posted by GoProp View Post
This is a great topic. GLAD you brought it up. I dealt with a problem for a very long time and sometimes still do.
I started using drugs and drinking at a young age cause I never like myself or who I was. I was beaten by my dad and my other brothers were never touched. It made me think that something was wrong with me and that I was worthless and a waste of breath and time.
I started lifting weights cause I was small as a teen and picked on by kid and still my father. So I became more and more engrossed in getting bigger and more powerful and making people fear me the way I had feared for so long.
I did my first real injectable cycle when I lived over seas growing up. Was Sust 250, 500mgs week and 25mgs Dbol ED. Was all pharmaceutical grade. The results blew my mind, I was hooked. Used for many years but eventually met my wife and just slowed down and well....did what boring married people do lol.
NoW I am getting back into it all just cause I feel older and don't wanna be left behind and love bein in the gym and the feeling and size that comes with it
My mind set is different then it was in my younger years and I now understand what drove me then but now I am driven by life, and the need to be in shape and be there a long time from now for my wife.
So what drives you??
Quote Originally Posted by benlash74 View Post
This is a very deep thread. Reading over some guys stuff we are all looking for the same thing. Respect. I have been an easy target for disrespectful assholes since grade school. Everything I've done in my life since then like karate, boxing, jui jitsu, drugs, alcohol, joining the marines, has been to push the fear of the image of being a defenseless weakling away from myself. To this day I will fight at the drop of a dime. I can't stand bullies. I take it upon myself to call them out for the cowards they truly are. I have noticed that most of the guys who lift and I train with are not bullies and I have seen plenty of them stand up for the smaller guys and gals. That cannot be just a coincidence. I agree that most of us have similar mindsets. Some people just aren't in tune with their inner thoughts.

Good for you!! both of you. as people have said this is a very interesting thread and all that have posted i applaud, especially some of you who have some not so nice stuff you have had to deal with. hopefully y'all way past all that and can keep moving forward in your lifes.