Hey guys I need some advice. I'm not new around here, I was here when BOP first started and then I fell off. I haven't cycled anything for about 5 years. Life caught up with me and I graduated college, got married, had a baby.... etc. Been out of the gym for about 2 years. Things have finally settled down and I'm getting back into the swing of things. I'm in the gym daily and my diet is on point. I've felt sluggish and just not myself for a while now, probably 2 years or so. I thought maybe that's just what having a kid does to you. I'm struggling in the gym lifting anything with much weight. Before I quit I was repping 315 squats all day with a 2 rep max of 515. Now I'm lucky to get 6 reps at 315. Could just be cause I'm a pussy

I'm very experienced with running my own cycles, doing bloods and staying on top of things. I've ran a lot of compounds about 8-5 years ago. I always PCT'd and I felt I used everything responsibly. I was wanting to run a 12 week prop/var cycle and I decided that since I haven't ran anything in a long time this was a perfect opportunity to get some base level bloods done. Well I'm certainly glad I did.

I have an old test from 2012 that was 6-8weeks after a PCT. My Total T was 609, LH was 7.5, FSH was 7.1 and Estradiol was 41.2 (kinda high?)

Well I got my test results in from my most recent test last week and my total T came back at 301, LH at 5.5, FSH at 7.5, and estradiol at 24. Everything else seems to be in range and looking good.

That shit seems super low to me. That's after me training pretty hard for the past six months. Dropping about 15lbs, and eating right damn near every day. I'd hate to see what it was before I got back at it.

I'm not really sure what to do here. I'm not against running TRT. Blast and cruise seems awesome, but I imagine that I will feel a lot better if I get my total T in a normal range. I'm 30 so it seems that I'm kind of young for this but it is what it is. My wife and I want to have one more kid in about 3 years. The last time it took us a solid 4mo to get pregnant. Not sure if my levels have anything to do with that. Will going on TRT make trying for a kid in a few years harder?

Should I go to my primary care doc and make up some excuse why I have these blood tests? My dad is legit on TRT and I could say that when he was first diagnosed I went and got a baseline. I'm a bio major so maybe he would believe that. Should I go try to find some sort of TRT clinic? I have doubts that my primary care doc is educated on modern endo stuff. With my total T still being "in range" I'm afraid he'd tell me to pound sand. But I also don't want to get raked over the coals and spend a shit ton of money at a specialty clinic. I really just want to do whats best for my health and well being. I'll happily cycle and PCT but I imagine that I will feel like shit after I come off.

Looks like I will put my next cycle on hold until I get this shit ironed out. Any advice is appreciated. Thanks y'all.