Thread: Cowboys Accountability Log

Day 337

Upon wake up:
50mg Metoprolol
500mg L-Tyrosine
1 serving liquid Turmeric
3iu HGH
125mg TestC
150mg EQ
50mg NPP


Meals:
Meal 1
Calories: 576
Shake
1 serving whey concentrate, unflavored
1 serving whey concentrate, Chocolate
4tbsp pbfit powdered peanut butter
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood
8oz coconut milk
8oz organic Aloe Vera juice
1 scoop terra kai, organic juice berry


Meal 2
Calories: 400
2 cup cottage cheese, darigold 2percent brand


Meal 3
Calories: 420
Shake
1 serving whey concentrate, unflavored
1 serving whey concentrate, chocolate
16oz coconut milk
1 scoop organic juice berry
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood


Meal 4
Calories: 420
Shake
1 serving whey concentrate, unflavored
1 serving whey concentrate, chocolate
16oz coconut milk
1 scoop organic juice berry
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood


Meal 5
Calories: 720
Shake
1 serving whey concentrate, unflavored
1 serving whey concentrate, chocolate
16oz coconut milk
1 scoop organic juice berry
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood
4tbsp pbfit powdered peanut butter

Soup
2 cups Carrot ginger, Trader Joe’s


Meal 6
Calories: 637
2cups pungent sounds clam chowder


Good day at work today. I met a new Fire Marshall Whos dead serious about her job and why she does what she does... it’s nice to hear the thoughts I have come from an authorities mouth... it’ll be nice to have some enforcement on the horizon and hopefully people will start taking life safety more seriously. If not, feel the burn in the pockets from lacking... she handed me her card and said I have an open anytime line with her anytime... there is a wind of change a blowing... hoist the sails

My energy was so pent up I just started walking... then found an apartment complex and hit the stairs... then walked some more... it felt so good!!! I felt alive. My heart fulfilled..

Started laying out notes on a book I’m going to write... Ive decided to just own it and write it first person. They’re my memories anyway. I keep getting writers block trying to write it as a story about someone else... so figuring if I just write it as it is in my head.. it should just flow, in theory...

Weeks done! Flew by. Productive week. Huge strides in the progress department. Feeling good! Ready to go to the next level.



Daily gratitude item:
Grateful for beautiful sunsets, snow capped mountains and the poking up of green fresh plant life for spring... for the ability to actually see these things in all their glory on display like a peacocks feathers for all to enjoy if they can just see.... a quiet mind, a still body and wandering eyes... allows the colors to really pop, while feeling a cool breeze dance across your skin... so much to see, so little time to see it in...




10:00pm
50mg metoprolol
1 - 5-HTP Plus
500mg L-Tyrosine
200mcg T4 liquid


Total water consumed until now:
1.75 gallons


Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 3,173
Protein: 302
Carbs: 214
Fiber: 48
Sugar: 72
Fat: 124


Workout:

5 mile walk topped off with 3 flights of stairs x’s 21 trips

I’ll read it Mike. What is your main topic or is it an autobiography?

Max


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Originally Posted by maxmuscle1

I’ll read it Mike. What is your main topic or is it an autobiography?

Max


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It’ll be mainly focused on the meth induced psychosis I was experiencing with 6 individual and distinct voices/personalities in my head and the end of my using days just before I decided to get sober... it will include the insanity experienced all the way from that decision to change up until the voices finally left me as a result from an horrible auto accident 6 months into my sobriety... every hallucination, visual and audible is etched into my brain. Every detail is engrained... the speaking in tongues weird shit to the demon faces when I looked into anything reflective... so literally a span of 3 months... I even had a run in with the devil himself... or at least a very vivid audible hallucination of him... it was crazy.

I am in hopes others will read it. Relate to the insanity. Hopefully see there is hope to get and stay sober. To stay out of prison. That there’s more to life than using. To understand the repercussions and lack of emotion is a result from using. That feel numb to everything is chemically caused and there are treatment options to help restore ones mind to a somewhat normal state again... I just am hoping to instill hope into the lost... it’ll be raw truth. It’ll be very embarrassing to have my dirty laundry so freely out there... but I feel it is necessary. It’s the rawness people will relate too..

I was going to write about my teenage years. The streets, the violence, being used by older dudes to collect debts by any means possible and living the lifestyles children shouldn’t be living... but I decided the one I would like to concentrate on would be the one that could hopefully help others.

Day 338

Upon wake up:
50mg Metoprolol
500mg L-Tyrosine
1 serving liquid Turmeric
3iu HGH



Meals:
Meal 1
Calories: 576
Shake
1 serving whey concentrate, unflavored
1 serving whey concentrate, Chocolate
4tbsp pbfit powdered peanut butter
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood
8oz coconut milk
8oz organic Aloe Vera juice
1 scoop terra kai, organic juice berry


Meal 2
Calories: 400
2 cup cottage cheese, darigold 2percent brand


Meal 3
Calories: 420
Shake
1 serving whey concentrate, unflavored
1 serving whey concentrate, chocolate
16oz coconut milk
1 scoop organic juice berry
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood

Meal 4
Calories: 420
Shake
1 serving whey concentrate, unflavored
1 serving whey concentrate, chocolate
16oz coconut milk
1 scoop organic juice berry
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood


Meal 5
Calories: 560
Shake
1 serving whey concentrate, unflavored
1 serving whey concentrate, chocolate
16oz coconut milk
1 scoop organic juice berry
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood
4tbsp pbfit powdered peanut butter



Easy easy day. Thunder storms popping off all day... I haven’t been in a thunder storm in over 5 years. They are not common out here. I couldn’t help but throw on my light clothes and water shoes and go for my walk in the drenching rain... it was a tad cold, but luckily I run hot anyway. I faired quite well.

Not too much to report today.



Daily gratitude item:
Grateful for the smell that follows a downpour from the sky’s... mix in the crack of thunder and the lightning show to follow... perfection... I’m grateful to have the ability to walk. To freely move about without assistance.




10:00pm will be
50mg metoprolol
1 - 5-HTP Plus
500mg L-Tyrosine
200mcg T4 liquid


Total water consumed until now:
1.25gallons


Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,376
Protein: 288
Carbs: 132
Fiber: 44
Sugar: 57
Fat: 78


Workout:

5 mile walk in the thunder storm

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

It’ll be mainly focused on the meth induced psychosis I was experiencing with 6 individual and distinct voices/personalities in my head and the end of my using days just before I decided to get sober... it will include the insanity experienced all the way from that decision to change up until the voices finally left me as a result from an horrible auto accident 6 months into my sobriety... every hallucination, visual and audible is etched into my brain. Every detail is engrained... the speaking in tongues weird shit to the demon faces when I looked into anything reflective... so literally a span of 3 months... I even had a run in with the devil himself... or at least a very vivid audible hallucination of him... it was crazy.

I am in hopes others will read it. Relate to the insanity. Hopefully see there is hope to get and stay sober. To stay out of prison. That there’s more to life than using. To understand the repercussions and lack of emotion is a result from using. That feel numb to everything is chemically caused and there are treatment options to help restore ones mind to a somewhat normal state again... I just am hoping to instill hope into the lost... it’ll be raw truth. It’ll be very embarrassing to have my dirty laundry so freely out there... but I feel it is necessary. It’s the rawness people will relate too..

I was going to write about my teenage years. The streets, the violence, being used by older dudes to collect debts by any means possible and living the lifestyles children shouldn’t be living... but I decided the one I would like to concentrate on would be the one that could hopefully help others.

That would be empowering for you and others that have experienced drugs and abuse. I am definitely going to buy it. It seems people have the hardest time opening up completely and I feel if they did... it would be amazing and impactful for the reader. Super cool Mike and I look forward to your rough draft.

Max


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Originally Posted by Cowboymike

It’ll be mainly focused on the meth induced psychosis I was experiencing with 6 individual and distinct voices/personalities in my head and the end of my using days just before I decided to get sober... it will include the insanity experienced all the way from that decision to change up until the voices finally left me as a result from an horrible auto accident 6 months into my sobriety... every hallucination, visual and audible is etched into my brain. Every detail is engrained... the speaking in tongues weird shit to the demon faces when I looked into anything reflective... so literally a span of 3 months... I even had a run in with the devil himself... or at least a very vivid audible hallucination of him... it was crazy.

I am in hopes others will read it. Relate to the insanity. Hopefully see there is hope to get and stay sober. To stay out of prison. That there’s more to life than using. To understand the repercussions and lack of emotion is a result from using. That feel numb to everything is chemically caused and there are treatment options to help restore ones mind to a somewhat normal state again... I just am hoping to instill hope into the lost... it’ll be raw truth. It’ll be very embarrassing to have my dirty laundry so freely out there... but I feel it is necessary. It’s the rawness people will relate too..

I was going to write about my teenage years. The streets, the violence, being used by older dudes to collect debts by any means possible and living the lifestyles children shouldn’t be living... but I decided the one I would like to concentrate on would be the one that could hopefully help others.

Holy shit bro! I'll read that! I experienced some serious cocaine psychosis back in my using days. Not sleeping for 8 days straight will have that effect on ya!

By the grace of God I'm coming up on 9 years sober now.

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Originally Posted by RussianBot

Holy shit bro! I'll read that! I experienced some serious cocaine psychosis back in my using days. Not sleeping for 8 days straight will have that effect on ya!

By the grace of God I'm coming up on 9 years sober now.

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Hell yeah man congrats on 9 big dawg!
I’ll be 15, June 8th ;0)

Now I really gotta get this thing written ;0) I mean I really gotta get it done. No more distractions and adhd bullshit. Grab this bull by the horns and ride it to the buzzer.