Thread: Cowboys Accountability Log

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

It is interesting to be able to not just recognize and see it, but to actually know somethings off... it’s like having a split personality, but being aware of it lol... but to know ourselves well enough to understand where exactly we are acting differently... is pretty damn interesting to me.

This is key.
I have been on tren enough now I know exactly when it is the tren and not just 100% me. I start breathing heavier and heavier. Then its time to remove myself from the situation.

That day I choked my brother in law I was gulping full breaths 2 per second and couldnt even talk I was hyperventilating so bad. Granted I would have reacted the same way tren or no tren but it makes it near impossible to calm down unless you leave the situation.

Originally Posted by born

This is key.
I have been on tren enough now I know exactly when it is the tren and not just 100% me. I start breathing heavier and heavier. Then its time to remove myself from the situation.

That day I choked my brother in law I was gulping full breaths 2 per second and couldnt even talk I was hyperventilating so bad. Granted I would have reacted the same way tren or no tren but it makes it near impossible to calm down unless you leave the situation.

And this is why it’s so appreciated for everyone to share and compare... to help one identify, to prepare for and learn ways on how to deal with or how to handle oneself during these situations ;0)

Day 56

Morning upon wake up
10mg Nolva
100mg TrenA
100mg MastP
100mg TestP
—————
Moving 2nd dose to before bedtime
3iu HGH @5:30am (3iu @8:00pm)
—————
4 cups coffee (1- 7-11 mug full)(calories not included) 6-7:30am to drink it
—————
50mg Winny caps @ 5:30am
50mg Winny caps @ 4:00pm
—————
30mg cialis pre-workout @ 4:00pm




9:00am Meal 1
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


10:00am Meal 2
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


11:00am Meal 3
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


12:00pm Meal 4
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 107 P / 26 C / 41 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 812
12oz boneless, skinless, chicken thigh
0.5cup jasmine rice
5oz coconut curry chicken breast


2:00pm Meal 5
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 29 P / 5 C / 43 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 530
3 tillamoo mild cheddar cheese
4 dukes mini smoked sausages



4:00pm Meal 6 pre-workout Shake, winny, cialis
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 95 P / 44 C / 16 F
Calorie goal:
Actual: 685
1 scoop choc whey concentrate
2 scoop unflavored whey concentrate
4 cups chopped power greens
1 tablespoon super seed w/coconut
4 tablespoon pbfit poweder peanut butter
1 cup homemade berry mix
1 serving Terra Kai powdered juice
16floz water


Plus all vitamins:
Tudca, NAC, C01Q, Potassium Citrate, Vit D3, Vit B6, Vit E, Hawthorn Berry, Celery seed extract, Super B complex, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Glucosamine, MSM, Chondroitin, Turmeric, Vita-liver, Liver Support, S-Acetyl Glutathione, Organ Defender, Elderberry, Taurine

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Well my appetite has returned in full force... geezus... I wish I didn’t buy another round of these breakfast bars... they’re quick and easy and are problematic...I shouldn’t have ventured off my fucking diet... now I’ll pay the price of fighting to get back on track... how easily I forget sometimes the fights I must fight to get things flowing... ugh

Today was day 2 of 6 day heat wave.. man the heat sure does drain me... but whatever, only a month left of summer... I can hang..

Smashed arms today... nothing heavy, just moderate weight, mainly concentration work and utilizing the incline bench or preacher bench to assist.. amazing pump though... vascularity galore... very pleased to see the veins popping.... I keep forgetting I have these bottles of cialis laying around lol... after today I’m sure I won’t be forgetting as the pump is definitely worth remembering to take it preworkout... resting 15-20 seconds between set and getting solid and clean reps... it all adds up to a beautiful workout and loving it!

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8:00pm
3iu hgh
50mg proviron
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
0.5mg ropinirole (for restless leg syndrome)
4-Costco sleep aid
.25mg caber
————————————————

Total water consumed until now:
2.25 gallons, 16oz

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Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,598 (98calories over goal)
Protein: 266 ( 84 grams under goal)
Carbs: 149 (49 grams over goal)
Fiber: 32
Sugar: 32
Fat: 118 (38 grams over goal)

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

Day 56

Morning upon wake up
10mg Nolva
100mg TrenA
100mg MastP
100mg TestP
—————
Moving 2nd dose to before bedtime
3iu HGH @5:30am (3iu @8:00pm)
—————
4 cups coffee (1- 7-11 mug full)(calories not included) 6-7:30am to drink it
—————
50mg Winny caps @ 5:30am
50mg Winny caps @ 4:00pm
—————
30mg cialis pre-workout @ 4:00pm




9:00am Meal 1
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


10:00am Meal 2
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


11:00am Meal 3
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


12:00pm Meal 4
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 107 P / 26 C / 41 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 812
12oz boneless, skinless, chicken thigh
0.5cup jasmine rice
5oz coconut curry chicken breast


2:00pm Meal 5
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 29 P / 5 C / 43 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 530
3 tillamoo mild cheddar cheese
4 dukes mini smoked sausages



4:00pm Meal 6 pre-workout Shake, winny, cialis
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 95 P / 44 C / 16 F
Calorie goal:
Actual: 685
1 scoop choc whey concentrate
2 scoop unflavored whey concentrate
4 cups chopped power greens
1 tablespoon super seed w/coconut
4 tablespoon pbfit poweder peanut butter
1 cup homemade berry mix
1 serving Terra Kai powdered juice
16floz water


Plus all vitamins:
Tudca, NAC, C01Q, Potassium Citrate, Vit D3, Vit B6, Vit E, Hawthorn Berry, Celery seed extract, Super B complex, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Glucosamine, MSM, Chondroitin, Turmeric, Vita-liver, Liver Support, S-Acetyl Glutathione, Organ Defender, Elderberry, Taurine

———————————————————-


Well my appetite has returned in full force... geezus... I wish I didn’t buy another round of these breakfast bars... they’re quick and easy and are problematic...I shouldn’t have ventured off my fucking diet... now I’ll pay the price of fighting to get back on track... how easily I forget sometimes the fights I must fight to get things flowing... ugh

Today was day 2 of 6 day heat wave.. man the heat sure does drain me... but whatever, only a month left of summer... I can hang..

Smashed arms today... nothing heavy, just moderate weight, mainly concentration work and utilizing the incline bench or preacher bench to assist.. amazing pump though... vascularity galore... very pleased to see the veins popping.... I keep forgetting I have these bottles of cialis laying around lol... after today I’m sure I won’t be forgetting as the pump is definitely worth remembering to take it preworkout... resting 15-20 seconds between set and getting solid and clean reps... it all adds up to a beautiful workout and loving it!

————————————————————

8:00pm
3iu hgh
50mg proviron
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
0.5mg ropinirole (for restless leg syndrome)
4-Costco sleep aid
.25mg caber
————————————————

Total water consumed until now:
2.25 gallons, 16oz

—————————————————

Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,598 (98calories over goal)
Protein: 266 ( 84 grams under goal)
Carbs: 149 (49 grams over goal)
Fiber: 32
Sugar: 32
Fat: 118 (38 grams over goal)

Gotta love arm day!

Originally Posted by born

Gotta love arm day!

Arm and leg day are my absolute favorite days ;0)

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

Arm and leg day are my absolute favorite days ;0)

I like quad day but I hate hams.
Just trying to figure out how to get my hams shredded is a bitch. I cant do stiff leg roes and always wind up in the roman chai and leg culing only

Day 57

Morning upon wake up
10mg Nolva
100mg TrenA
100mg MastP
100mg TestP
—————
Moving 2nd dose to before bedtime was a terrible idea... I forgot about the hgh being a stimulant.. won’t do that again...
3iu HGH @5:30am (3iu @4:00pm)
—————
4 cups coffee (1- 7-11 mug full)(calories not included) 6-7:30am to drink it
—————
50mg Winny caps @ 5:30am
50mg Winny caps @ 4:00pm
—————
30mg cialis pre-workout @ 4:00pm




9:00am Meal 1
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


10:00am Meal 2
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


11:00am Meal 3
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


12:00pm Meal 4
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 69 P / 23 C / 48 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 780
3oz boneless, skinless, chicken thigh
2 Aidelles chipotle chicken burger
3 tillamoo chedder cheese piece



2:00pm Meal 5
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 24 P / 4 C / 36 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 440
2 tillamoo mild cheddar cheese
4 dukes mini smoked sausages




6:00pm Meal 6
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 32 P / 42 C / 43 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 720
3.5 organic ground beef
Taco seasoning
6 tbsp sliced black olives
3.5 cups chopped tomato
1 slice habanero slice cheese
6 tbsp sour cream



Plus all vitamins:
Tudca, NAC, C01Q, Potassium Citrate, Vit D3, Vit B6, Vit E, Hawthorn Berry, Celery seed extract, Super B complex, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Glucosamine, MSM, Chondroitin, Turmeric, Vita-liver, Liver Support, S-Acetyl Glutathione, Organ Defender, Elderberry, Taurine

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Work was insane... heat was insane... my chest work, yup, insane... I was already drained by the time I walked through the gym doors... I didn’t want to even go to be honest... but I ain’t meeting my goals if I’m skipping gym days... went for the pump today.... light but strict. Pumped up nice n full... I even thought I looked like I’m putting on size in the mirror... I always look bigger with a shirt on lol...


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8:00pm
50mg proviron
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
0.5mg ropinirole (for restless leg syndrome)
4-Costco sleep aid

————————————————

Total water consumed until now:
2.25 gallons

—————————————————

Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,540 (40 calories over goal)
Protein: 161 (189 grams under goal)
Carbs: 141 (41 grams over goal)
Fiber: 17
Sugar: 34
Fat: 151 (71 grams over goal)

Day 58

Morning upon wake up
10mg Nolva
100mg TrenA
100mg MastP
100mg TestP
12.5mg aromasin
—————
3iu HGH @5:30am (3iu @4:00pm)
—————
4 cups coffee (1- 7-11 mug full)(calories not included) 6-7:30am to drink it
—————
50mg Winny caps @ 5:30am
50mg Winny caps @ 4:00pm
—————
30mg cialis pre-workout @ 4:00pm

Trying to get these breakfast bars gone.. almost there!


9:00am Meal 1
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


10:00am Meal 2
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


11:00am Meal 3
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 12 P / 24 C / 8 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 200
1 breakfast protein bar, peanut butter crunch


12:00pm Meal 4
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 95 P / 5 C / 64 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 920
9oz boneless, skinless, chicken thigh
3 tillamoo chedder cheese piece
4 dukes mini smoked sausage


2:00pm Meal 5
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 10 P / 32 C / 14 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 180
1 jalapeño and cheese corn dog
1 monster energy drink


Plus all vitamins:
Tudca, NAC, C01Q, Potassium Citrate, Vit D3, Vit B6, Vit E, Hawthorn Berry, Celery seed extract, Super B complex, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Glucosamine, MSM, Chondroitin, Turmeric, Vita-liver, Liver Support, S-Acetyl Glutathione, Organ Defender, Elderberry, Taurine



6:00pm Meal 6
Macro goal: P / C / F
Actual: 18 P / 10 C / 18 F
Calorie Goal:
Actual: 300
Beef stir fry with veggies and sauce


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Shoulder day... but after, I felt I still had some wind in my sails and started to hit a few sets of back... which turned into a double session and hit a full back workout on top of a full shoulder routine... surprised the shit out of me in all honesty.. I’ve had no energy all damn day...

Been spending all night going over a stupid finances worksheet for the damn irs and state of Cali... I owe lots and lots.. but to stop wage garnishment I have to file these stupid hardships every year... it’s seriously beyond me how nothing we have is ever even truly ours... everything we think we own, can be snatched up and taken by the government or local jurisdictions... even AFTER you move far away... our land, houses, toys... none of it is ever truly ours... we make payments and all... but the minute you don’t pay what they think you owe, it’s all gone... property taxes, mean you’ll never ever truly own your own property.... can’t make the payment? Gone. Sold to help you pay...

Anyway, that’s the rest of my nights, this weeks, work... get this thing wrapped up and beg for another year to not fuck me out of my paycheck.... hopefully they back off.. only few more years until it goes away automatically anyway... it’s a race against time for real now... I can’t afford to pay them anyway.. that’s no lie..


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8:00pm
50mg proviron
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
0.5mg ropinirole (for restless leg syndrome)
4-Costco sleep aid

————————————————

Total water consumed until now:
1.50 gallons

—————————————————

Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,000 (500 calories under goal)
Protein: 159 (191 grams under goal)
Carbs: 119 (19 grams over goal)
Fiber: 22
Sugar: 36
Fat: 120 (40 grams over goal)

Glad you got a double in.

On the irs and state shit start spending more time looking at them like an enemy you are trying to fuck.
If there is a way they will take everything you own.
Return that favor to them.

Home office space in your house
Start prorating every mike on your Pesrsonal vehicles at fed level thats like. $.58 per mile.
Throw a wrench in the seat and they can fuck off.
Look into prorating per diem
There are a million way to make every law they write bite them in the ass.

I have come to view the world this way. I am free, I will do what I want, anyone who gets in the way of that is an obstacle I will either remove or negotiate.

The IRS is so fucking busy atm they cant even check on most people grossing less than a million.

Someone is getting fucked, either you or the IRS.
Take the time and money to go to a tax attouney and learn how to hand it right back.

Originally Posted by born

Glad you got a double in.

On the irs and state shit start spending more time looking at them like an enemy you are trying to fuck.
If there is a way they will take everything you own.
Return that favor to them.

Home office space in your house
Start prorating every mike on your Pesrsonal vehicles at fed level thats like. $.58 per mile.
Throw a wrench in the seat and they can fuck off.
Look into prorating per diem
There are a million way to make every law they write bite them in the ass.

I have come to view the world this way. I am free, I will do what I want, anyone who gets in the way of that is an obstacle I will either remove or negotiate.

The IRS is so fucking busy atm they cant even check on most people grossing less than a million.

Someone is getting fucked, either you or the IRS.
Take the time and money to go to a tax attouney and learn how to hand it right back.

Amen to that brother ;0) just a couple more years left and I will be home free and they can fuck themselves ;0)