Thread: Cowboys Accountability Log

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

I didn’t realize how much I needed this downtime... I think you should treat yourself to some real downtime during your slow season brother!! A complete unplug if possible as far as work phones or related items to the stresses of life... I feel ready to go balls to the wall again!

Maybe this winter brother lol!

Day 89

Surfed my final day... I could not surf another minute, even if I wanted to... my entire body was toast at this point...

This day was the day my girl and I did our commitment ceremony... marriage but without the legality and paperwork... the ceremony itself was an old Celtic rope tying ceremony involving rope, promises and close friends tying the knots...



Day 90

Drove back home... around 19 hours or so thanks to the damn forest fires... completely drained at that point and toast lol



Day 91 ... today...

125mg Test C
150mg EQ
30mg cialis preworkout

I will get my meals back up and going

Worked 5-3 today.. so tired it’s ridiculous

Blasted arms at gym.. incorporated quite a bit of preacher movements. Hammers and curls. I’m riding high on my momentum still...

Finished off with 45min cardio, elliptical 5 miles, setting 12

Weigh in at gym, I lost 8 pounds over the week on vacation. We will see what next week shows though lol... if I even go back up those 8 I’ll be alright... I’m honestly not really that worried about it.. my gym routine is increasing in weight and intensity... The extra calories will play right into my next phase anyway...

My girls mom is finally going to her assisted living place in about 30min... much needed for this to happen. My sanity is about gone as is my patience. I feel horrible for my thoughts and feelings surrounding this situation... but at the same time, this was forced upon me without warning... resentments have grown over it.... I’ll help her get her shit in the car. My girl will help her unpack and get settled into the new place.

I’m in desperate need of some earlier sleep. I got some catching up to do... ive been up early AF my entire vacation lol..

Looking forward to catching up here on everything. Definitely missed my interactions with my brothers here (and sister) y’all keep me centered and balanced ;0)

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

Day 89

Surfed my final day... I could not surf another minute, even if I wanted to... my entire body was toast at this point...

This day was the day my girl and I did our commitment ceremony... marriage but without the legality and paperwork... the ceremony itself was an old Celtic rope tying ceremony involving rope, promises and close friends tying the knots...



Day 90

Drove back home... around 19 hours or so thanks to the damn forest fires... completely drained at that point and toast lol



Day 91 ... today...

125mg Test C
150mg EQ
30mg cialis preworkout

I will get my meals back up and going

Worked 5-3 today.. so tired it’s ridiculous

Blasted arms at gym.. incorporated quite a bit of preacher movements. Hammers and curls. I’m riding high on my momentum still...

Finished off with 45min cardio, elliptical 5 miles, setting 12

Weigh in at gym, I lost 8 pounds over the week on vacation. We will see what next week shows though lol... if I even go back up those 8 I’ll be alright... I’m honestly not really that worried about it.. my gym routine is increasing in weight and intensity... The extra calories will play right into my next phase anyway...

My girls mom is finally going to her assisted living place in about 30min... much needed for this to happen. My sanity is about gone as is my patience. I feel horrible for my thoughts and feelings surrounding this situation... but at the same time, this was forced upon me without warning... resentments have grown over it.... I’ll help her get her shit in the car. My girl will help her unpack and get settled into the new place.

I’m in desperate need of some earlier sleep. I got some catching up to do... ive been up early AF my entire vacation lol..

Looking forward to catching up here on everything. Definitely missed my interactions with my brothers here (and sister) y’all keep me centered and balanced ;0)

See you tomorrow brother!

Originally Posted by StateSide

Congratulations to you guys on the commitment! That is a great thing. Very excited for you.

On the other side of things, man I have some thoughts I am ashamed of surrounding my own mother since my father has passed. Years of hard talk from her....the language of absolutes that I can’t stand....only to find out she has really no idea how to take care of the simplest things like arranging bill payments. Resentment hit FAST. My thoughts don’t count so much as my actions and so I help her.

I know you did the right thing in the situation you were put in, even if you DID want to burn the house down. It’s the actions that make you the man you are my friend. And I ain’t saying anything you don’t already know.

Amped up to have you back after your vacation brother. May work go easy, and your 8 lbs be 100 percent lean muscle!

You totally hit the nail on the head brother... exactly the same type of stuff... and you’re right, the actions are what count... thank goodness lol... cause I’m glad my thoughts can’t be heard!! I appreciate you sharing with me brother, your experiences...

Day 92
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4 cups coffee (1- 7-11 mug full)(calories not included) 5:30-7:00am to drink it
—————

8:00am Meal 1
Calories: 330
1 Trader Joe’s English muffin
1 turkey sausage patty
1 habanero cheese slice


10:00am Meal 2
Calories: 330
1 Trader Joe’s English muffin
1 turkey sausage patty
1 habanero cheese slice


12:00pm Meal 3
Calories: 380
12oz premium chicken breast shredded
1/2cup sliced mushrooms


2:00pm Meal 3
Calories: 580
1 chocolate chip cookie dough protein bar
12oz chicken breast, chipotle seasoning

Late meal due to platelet donation

8:00pm Meal 4
Calories: 280
24 tablespoons egg whites
2 slice habanero cheese slice



Plus all vitamins:
Tudca, NAC, C01Q, Potassium Citrate, Vit D3, Vit B6, Vit E, Hawthorn Berry, Celery seed extract, Super B complex, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Glucosamine, MSM, Chondroitin, Turmeric, Vita-liver, Liver Support, S-Acetyl Glutathione, Organ Defender, Elderberry, Taurine


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Busy busy day today... but the day is over... I had doctors appointment and had to do platelet donation at Redcross... so no gym tonight for me.

Doc is impressed with my progress with my BF and weight loss, my BP is 120/70 and my resting heart rate was 56... so it may be time to start letting go of my BP meds to see if my body will take back over... this was about where I was before I fucked myself off... my doc doesn’t know about my enhancing doses between his blood tests lol... so I’m definitely keeping the prescriptions alive and well as I venture off with testing my body... totally stoked I’m running at normal with my current eq and test dosing... it’s all working out fine for me.

The restless legs thing is just something I’m screwed on for now I guess... I refuse to up my doses and he’s understanding... so I’m happy he’s not pressing me on that.. I’ll run the bottle out at the current dose, then I’ll refill the script... then I’ll take a couple weeks and off... see how bad it gets and then, if a once ever other day or a couple times a week would be helpful. Anything other than everyday forcing me to up doses... like with everything else I do, it’s all uncover, discover and keep it disregard... trial and error. Eventually I’ll get dialed in with more of what works...

Oddly enough my weight is down 10pounds... I guess I didn’t realize I was holding so much water... more curious as to how my system finally decided to dump the water during a time I wasn’t eating very good choices lol... should’ve been the exact opposite I thought... ugh I’m slow to the giddy up of understanding nutrition lol...

Got some sample hgh coming. A new sponsor is trading for bloodwork for this board to have on file.. it will be nice to get some new stuff flowing in the system again ;0)

Gastro docs about pissing me off... paid all that money and the fucksticks prescribe me 20mg Prilosec per day... same exact shit I’ve already been taking forever... I told them what they can do with that prescription and their bullshit... they prescribed something different and I’m suppose to come back in 6 weeks if it doesn’t work. Which it won’t. Fuck em.... schedule the surgical fix asshats... I’m tired of playing around... I got some shit called Barrett’s or something... biopsy came back positive. So they gotta check every 8 months from now on to make sure it’s not turning into cancer... which they said it can and I’m stuck getting checked all the time now... why not just cut the shit now? Give me some metal throat or something... so lame...

—————————————————
8:00pm:
50mg proviron
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
0.5mg ropinirole (for restless leg syndrome)
————————————————

Total water consumed until now:
1.75 gallons

————————————————

Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,240 (210 calories under goal)
Protein: 271 (79 grams under goal)
Carbs: 78 (35 grams over goal)
Fiber: 22
Sugar: 5
Fat: 90 (28 grams over goal)

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

Day 92
—————
4 cups coffee (1- 7-11 mug full)(calories not included) 5:30-7:00am to drink it
—————

8:00am Meal 1
Calories: 330
1 Trader Joe’s English muffin
1 turkey sausage patty
1 habanero cheese slice


10:00am Meal 2
Calories: 330
1 Trader Joe’s English muffin
1 turkey sausage patty
1 habanero cheese slice


12:00pm Meal 3
Calories: 380
12oz premium chicken breast shredded
1/2cup sliced mushrooms


2:00pm Meal 3
Calories: 580
1 chocolate chip cookie dough protein bar
12oz chicken breast, chipotle seasoning

Late meal due to platelet donation

8:00pm Meal 4
Calories: 280
24 tablespoons egg whites
2 slice habanero cheese slice



Plus all vitamins:
Tudca, NAC, C01Q, Potassium Citrate, Vit D3, Vit B6, Vit E, Hawthorn Berry, Celery seed extract, Super B complex, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Glucosamine, MSM, Chondroitin, Turmeric, Vita-liver, Liver Support, S-Acetyl Glutathione, Organ Defender, Elderberry, Taurine


————————————————
Busy busy day today... but the day is over... I had doctors appointment and had to do platelet donation at Redcross... so no gym tonight for me.

Doc is impressed with my progress with my BF and weight loss, my BP is 120/70 and my resting heart rate was 56... so it may be time to start letting go of my BP meds to see if my body will take back over... this was about where I was before I fucked myself off... my doc doesn’t know about my enhancing doses between his blood tests lol... so I’m definitely keeping the prescriptions alive and well as I venture off with testing my body... totally stoked I’m running at normal with my current eq and test dosing... it’s all working out fine for me.

The restless legs thing is just something I’m screwed on for now I guess... I refuse to up my doses and he’s understanding... so I’m happy he’s not pressing me on that.. I’ll run the bottle out at the current dose, then I’ll refill the script... then I’ll take a couple weeks and off... see how bad it gets and then, if a once ever other day or a couple times a week would be helpful. Anything other than everyday forcing me to up doses... like with everything else I do, it’s all uncover, discover and keep it disregard... trial and error. Eventually I’ll get dialed in with more of what works...

Oddly enough my weight is down 10pounds... I guess I didn’t realize I was holding so much water... more curious as to how my system finally decided to dump the water during a time I wasn’t eating very good choices lol... should’ve been the exact opposite I thought... ugh I’m slow to the giddy up of understanding nutrition lol...

Got some sample hgh coming. A new sponsor is trading for bloodwork for this board to have on file.. it will be nice to get some new stuff flowing in the system again ;0)

Gastro docs about pissing me off... paid all that money and the fucksticks prescribe me 20mg Prilosec per day... same exact shit I’ve already been taking forever... I told them what they can do with that prescription and their bullshit... they prescribed something different and I’m suppose to come back in 6 weeks if it doesn’t work. Which it won’t. Fuck em.... schedule the surgical fix asshats... I’m tired of playing around... I got some shit called Barrett’s or something... biopsy came back positive. So they gotta check every 8 months from now on to make sure it’s not turning into cancer... which they said it can and I’m stuck getting checked all the time now... why not just cut the shit now? Give me some metal throat or something... so lame...

—————————————————
8:00pm:
50mg proviron
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
0.5mg ropinirole (for restless leg syndrome)
————————————————

Total water consumed until now:
1.75 gallons

————————————————

Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,240 (210 calories under goal)
Protein: 271 (79 grams under goal)
Carbs: 78 (35 grams over goal)
Fiber: 22
Sugar: 5
Fat: 90 (28 grams over goal)

Brother I will bet you are lean looking with that water gone
Sorry about the dumb fuck prilosec shit. They did the same thing to my grandma who had your issue.
There was only one pill she ever found that worked and it was ollegal in the US. I have no way of speaking to her and no idea what it was cslled but she got it from mexico.

I hope you find a cure for that man. It has to suck bad.

Originally Posted by born

Brother I will bet you are lean looking with that water gone
Sorry about the dumb fuck prilosec shit. They did the same thing to my grandma who had your issue.
There was only one pill she ever found that worked and it was ollegal in the US. I have no way of speaking to her and no idea what it was cslled but she got it from mexico.

I hope you find a cure for that man. It has to suck bad.

Much appreciate you brother!
It’s definitely frustrating... I’ll jump through their hoops... as long as I’m getting what I need in the end... I’m trying to get/stay away from pills... but if that’s what is needed then so be it... I just want it to work.. I came in their office needing solutions already taking the dosage they prescribed... just about set me off... they said there’s a surgical solution... i am wanting to just go that route... so I’ll push it to the end ;0)

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

Much appreciate you brother!
It’s definitely frustrating... I’ll jump through their hoops... as long as I’m getting what I need in the end... I’m trying to get/stay away from pills... but if that’s what is needed then so be it... I just want it to work.. I came in their office needing solutions already taking the dosage they prescribed... just about set me off... they said there’s a surgical solution... i am wanting to just go that route... so I’ll push it to the end ;0)

Surgery would be best.
Wonder why they are fucking about in doing so....

If that axid wears long enough, aside from cancer it can become too late for surgery. They need to get on it