Cowboys Accountability Log

**Cowboymike** · 10-18-2018, 03:42 AM

Originally Posted by German89

Like meal 1, 2, 3, 4, etc?

Yeah

**German89** · 10-18-2018, 04:09 AM

Let me see.

Settings > diary settings > customize meal names

**Cowboymike** · 10-18-2018, 04:29 AM

Originally Posted by German89

Let me see.

Settings > diary settings > customize meal names

You are pure awesome sauce!!! I would have never figured that out

thank you SO much!!!

**StateSide** · 10-18-2018, 10:30 AM

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

Lol you’re awesome sauce brother... keeping it real 24/7 and can’t do anything but admire ya brother!

Are you going on a honeymoon?

Oh yes sir. Keeping it southern and fairly local in Asheville NC. Beautiful town with killer access into the Blue Ridge. As with all our trips, only regret is we won’t be able to head over to Pisgah to get some climbing in.

Have a great day man!

**JimmyMcFistacuff** · 10-18-2018, 11:48 AM

Originally Posted by StateSide

Oh yes sir. Keeping it southern and fairly local in Asheville NC. Beautiful town with killer access into the Blue Ridge. As with all our trips, only regret is we won’t be able to head over to Pisgah to get some climbing in.

Have a great day man!

SS.. if you're in Ashville and you like craft beer there is a ton of breweries in Ashville.

I'm leaving for mountains tomorrow. Right up the ridge from yall. Beech mountain and banner elk, NC.

Hope yall have fun..

JMcF

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**German89** · 10-18-2018, 12:06 PM

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

You are pure awesome sauce!!! I would have never figured that out

thank you SO much!!!

Lol. Youre welcome!

**MCmeshugenah** · 10-18-2018, 02:16 PM

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**StateSide** · 10-18-2018, 03:51 PM

Originally Posted by JimmyMcFistacuff

SS.. if your in Ashville and you like craft beer there is a ton of breweries in Ashville.

I'm leaving for mountains tomorrow. Right up the ridge from yall. Beech mountain and banner elk, NC.

Hope yall have fun..

JMcF

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Thanks brother. Yeah we plan to have a damned good time. Hope you do the same.

You live in the south or just visiting?

**GymPrincess** · 10-18-2018, 03:54 PM

Originally Posted by Cowboymike

You are pure awesome sauce!!! I would have never figured that out

thank you SO much!!!

You will love the app. I have the premium where u can do your macros by grams too and add time stamps!

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**Cowboymike** · 10-19-2018, 03:50 AM

Day 127

Sorry I’m slacking today off... I did legs after brutal day at work and got cut short from the wifey who was concerned about her mom not answering the phone and missing the ride to the doctors... she was upset enough I just left the gym to go see what was up... and her mom was laid out on the floor again unable to get up.... so been dealing with that all evening...

I feel horrible for my horrible thoughts... I just grew up in a world where when people don’t take care of themselves, then they are fucked because of it... I got no sympathy for that... like literally none... zero... I feel cold, heartless and like a scumbag for the horrible thoughts I have of irritation, frustration and then anger... but then my ego takes over and makes me feel justified in my feelings... like fuck this person... they have diseases they didn’t give two fucks about and did zero to take care of themself, now they’re paying the prices... why the fuck is this my burden?

And then I feel the shame, guilt and like a complete piece of shit for my thoughts...

that’s still a suffering human being. Regardless how they got there... still in pain. Still suffering. Probably scared and feeling like a burden... confused with a fucked memory and a rapidly decreasing IQ... logical doesn’t exist in the thought process... survival tactics or ability is at a zero level... like, zero... lay there in one spot, pissing oneself and not eating or taking meds... unable to crawl around or move? And then the anger creeps back up... repeat process but add in a bit of manic on the emotional swings....

Sorry to drop that in the log... I’m just at a loss... I don’t know how to help this human being... it kills me to see my girl hurting and there’s nothing I can do about it... it kills me to not be able to know the next steps... I can’t afford this person.. she’s never gotten technically divorced so I can’t get her on welfare Medicare or whatever to get her in a nursing facility... but this is 4 times this week she’s fallen and just sat there all day/night... she gets 1800 a month from the ex husband... which is like not even half of what a nursing home will cost...

So I’m at a loss... how do I help this human being? How do I stop thinking my stupid asshole thoughts?

End rant...

I’ll respond to y’all tomorrow.. sorry to be slacking! I’ll catch up tomorrow