I went back up to 3.25mg on the mirtazapine and slept really well last night. I think I just need to chill out and stop trying to lower the dose too fast. My hormones are still stabilizing from PCT and trying to come off the AD too fast is probably throwing everything off further. Feel really good today though, like 90% of my normal self. If I can continue having days like this for awhile I'll be really happy; the crazy mood swings were becoming really difficult to deal with.

Some gyms in my city finally told the governor to fuck off and opened indoors, and I got my push workout in. It sucks watching your strength and size go away, but today was the first time in awhile where I actually enjoyed lifting and wasn't forcing it.

I think I might run two more weeks of nolva at 10mg alongside my natty test booster, since I couldn't handle the clomid anymore. Have never tried nolva, so if I start feeling shit again I'll know what it is.